visual inspiration.

art is meant to stimulate the imagination. hopefully it cures writer’s block. enjoy some of my favorite works of surrealism.

minaj? yes please..

i won’t lie when i first heard of Nicki Minaj i was like who? to me she was nothing but a biter, copying Kim’s doll-like style circa ‘How Many Licks’ and not giving any credit where it’s due. but she grew on me, she is recreating female rap, the vision, the hunger, the style. she’s cutting edge & she’s not afraid & her vocal capability makes her unique. so what if she might not write her own rhymes (we don’t even know all that yet), Kim didn’t write all her own rhymes either, it was Biggie behind the scenes. it takes a chick like Nicki to be able to skill the rhymes she spits out her mouth. in her part in Drake’s “Up All Night” she showcases an ability the masses haven’t seen in a while; a raw, hardcore smart mouth & emphasis on all the right parts, backed by a nothin’-to-be-fucked-with attitude & sex appeal.

day by day nothing seems to change..

but pretty soon everything’s very different.- Bill Watterson

easily one of my favorite quotes & always makes me think about life; the past, the present, & the future. our experiences, our interests, the people we’ve met & loved, the people we’ve met, loved, & lost, the people who we aspire to be like, the people who we know we never want to be like, our parents or guardians who do their best to raise a good human being, our friends who’ve been in our lives for years who are such a huge part of who we are today, the friends who come and go for a reason… our perceptions, our visions, our talents, & our passions. the roads we took & mistakes we’ve made, the moments of sheer joy & the moments of utter sadness. so much composes a single person; we are like a song.

to think, day in & day out we persevere, we do what we do & at times it might seem repetitive & standing still in time… but change is inevitable.

bring back the SUPERMODEL

just finished watching a fashion show (no names necessary) & couldn’t help but notice how cookie cutter todays models are.. I completely understand the importance of modeling the clothes themselves as opposed to the attention being on the model only but I remember when I first laid eyes on fashion models (at that time it was the era of Claudia Schiffer, Linda Evangelista, Helena Christensen, Christy Turlington, Naomi Campbell etc.) & they all looked so legendary to me; the epitome of a SUPERMODEL. They were more than supermodels, they were superWOMEN. They were far from cookie cutter, each one stood out with her own specific look & personality, they were different in their own ways.. they blended perfectly together in pictures yet each one stood out & was memorable. I’m in love with these ads

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JAY-Z love

the ROC was in the building on March 6th at Izod Center in NJ. After being a hardcore Jay-Z fan since I’m 14 years old (circa 2000, the days of the release of The Dynasty: Roc La Familia), I finally went to my first Jay-Z concert and I was impressed, but left wanting more. After buying The Dynasty in 2000 (or rather, having my mom reluctantly buy it for me)  I was quickly told by my older friends that I was missing out on the “true gems”, those being the tracks off Reasonable Doubt. After buying Reasonable Doubt it was WITHOUT a doubt as good as it was hyped up to be. From the first track to the last, it oozes “Brooklyn” in a way only a true Brooklynite would really understand. It doesn’t matter whether you’re black, white, yellow, or red, this album is the definition of a hip-hop classic (in my opinion of course, but feel free to argue). Being a 24 year old Russian girl who came to this country when she was 3, it feels good to amaze people with knowing all the lyrics to every song on almost every Jay-Z album. Just goes to show you that music breaks all barriers.

As for the concert, some songs performed were:

can i live
where im from
can i get a..
big pimpin
u dont know
public service announcement
show me what you got
d.o.a.
99 problems
give it to me
jigga
jigga what
already home
so ambitious
dirt
hardknock life
diamonds are forever
aint no nigga

Great night, can’t wait to see what else he has in store.

ok so im back..

its been a while.. i had a terrible case of writer’s block. more like mental block actually.. but it seems (i hope) that it’s over. so much has happened in between my last entry (Halloween) and now. Spring is upon us and the only way I can justify the long amount of time I wasn’t writing was a case of the winter blues. I really am a creature of environment. The sunshine makes me happy; I like the way it feels on my skin and even though it is downpouring right now, we turn the clocks forward at 2am and that makes me EXTRA happy. I look forward to the longer days and hot summer nights. It is probably the best time of the year to be in New York, the city LIVES during the summer. And I simply cannot wait.

Hallows Eve is upon us!

So it’s that time again! The freeway for freaks; you know what I’m talking about, it’s HALLOWEEN! My favorite holiday by far for the simple reason being that ANYTHING GOES.. GO OUT OF YOUR HEAD, GO INSANE! Wheres the party & what are YOU dressing up as? I will be at Club Purgatorio… taken from their website it reads: Combining the energy and glamour of a world-class nightclub with the spectacle and illusion of the theater, Purgatorio will offer an interactive Halloween experience unlike anything seen before in New York nightlife. Adults 21 and over will be immersed in a multi-level world of macabre fantasy complete with interactive variety acts and installations, all set in a dynamic environment that is at once frightening, erotic and whimsical.

Get tickets at http://enterpurgatorio.com/

Playgrounds

My childhood memories have never faded (they rarely do  for the jaded)

I remember how it used to be (with you, mommy, & me)

We would gather around & you would string on your guitar (if i closed my eyes it would take me so far)

Into a place where the children would laugh & play (a playground on a sunny afternoon, in May)

I’m grown now & the path of life has taken its toll (seems to be some sadness left in my soul)

& though we speak, i feel a great distance (& as much as i try, theres no resistance)

What happened father, did i let you down? (you’ll regret the choices you made when im in my wedding gown)

You’ll yearn to string your guitar for me (like you did when we were a family)

& as much as it hurt to see you go that day (lord knows I’d given anything for you to stay)

I’ll still let you into my life again if you decide to be a part (of not only my life, but my heart)

Maybe one day my children can hear you on the guitar (& I’ll close my eyes again & it’ll take me far) 

Into that place where the children would laugh & they would play

Like a playground on a sunny afternoon in May

there can only be ONE KING

after a long while of NOT blogging due to a newly attained CRAZY schedule I have decided to return & blog about something that I feel is a very important thing to acknowledge and respect. 2:26 P.M. (PDT) on June 25, 2009 marks the death of a truly irreplaceable and incredibly talented individual none other than Michael Joseph Jackson. In the public eye for 40 some odd years as part of the Jackson 5 and a solo artist, Michael Jackson has touched the lives of many people through his music, his presence, and his humanitarian efforts. He was a singer, composer, dancer, and producer who was impossible to duplicate (although many have tried). Regardless of what some of the public may think of him in terms of his personal life MJ made a tremendous impact on our pop-culture (and on my life directly through his music).

My father was a musician (bass-guitarist) and he was part of a band back in the 70′s. Almost as soon as I was old enough to understand what music is the sounds of MJ were part of my everyday life because my father was an avid fan of his music. In turn, my father handed those feelings over to me which are still with me today. Growing up I remember putting together outfits and performing for my parents to the sounds of “Billie Jean” and “Thriller”. I was so obsessed with him and his music that I would kiss the poster of him above my bed every night (it was the one from the Thriller album art of him and the baby tiger). When I listen to his music to this day I am able to feel things that no other artist can make me feel (no exaggerations). I associate specific songs from different albums with various parts of my life, sometimes even specific events and moments. I have to say that I am truly saddened by this event.

MJ’s accomplishments will be difficult to match: he was inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame twice, 13 Grammy’s, as well as 13 number one singles and 750 million records sold. Michael’s impact on the rise of MTV should also be acknowledged, as he served an important role in the crossover from a white artist dominated channel to the acceptance and praise of a black artist on MTV. Besides holding a Guiness World Record for “Most Successful Entertainer of All Time,” Michael should also be recognized for his true humanitarian side. Besides the dozens of charities he donated money to, he set up the Heal The World Foundation in 1992. “Heal The Kids was set up to develop a campaign to help parents and adults around the world to educate them on the importance of reprioritizing their lives in order to bring children into the main focus in order to imbue them with the love and devotion which they so badly need and to stop the cycle of neglect.” In can be said that Michael lacked a childhood of his own which is prevalent through some of his music, many of his statements, and his life which was in the spotlight but also out of the spotlight. It can also be said that he did his best to contribute to children all over the world and his efforts will never be forgotten.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I’m searching for the world that I come from
‘Cause I’ve been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart…
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities…
‘Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me…

People say I’m not okay
‘Cause I love such elementary things…
It’s been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I’ve never known…

Have you seen my Childhood?
I’m searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne…

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I’m strange that way
‘Cause I love such elementary things,
It’s been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I’ve never known…

Have you seen my Childhood?
I’m searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly…

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I’ve had

Have you seen my Childhood….

I have only one wish for Michael now and that is that he finds his childhood in the skies above <3

PATIENCE is a VIRTUE…

…but is it?

Although the origin of this widely used quote is unknown, we can break it down like this:

Patience is defined as good-natured tolerance of delay or incompetence.

Virtue is defined as the quality of doing what is right and avoiding what is wrong.

So, does that mean waiting for something to happen is right, and making it happen on your own is not?

What are your thoughts on this?… I am perplexed.